Hello, guys. Nowadays, I feel myself more sensitive. I guess I don’t know why,maybe since I’m doing my undergraduate thesis. I found myself a little bit annoying or more whining. But sorry, for someone out there if you’re my victim in my “TA” things. Honestly, I’m tired to be perfect. I’m not a perfect person, but I realize that I am neat and organize. Since my parents teach me how to controlling my life. Yeah, sometimes I should have an argue with them about the decision I made. But, honestly I don’t have a mind if they’re making 80% decision of my life. I always believe that God always listen every single prayer especially with our parents. But, guess what? 100%, I’m so grateful with my life now. The truth is now I’m still searching for who I am?What I’m looking for in my life? What should I do after I graduate? Should they (parents) make a big decision after I graduate. The answer when I’m asking them about it. It’s just simple, Do what you like and you’re happy about it.
Damn it!!this is me now, who can not find what is my future will be. That’s why in the semester before that I went aboard to see how I can capture another dream. Am I a dream maker? Yes, I am. I always think that life is destiny, but you should have a destination on it. So you are not going to lost, but yeah I’m tired to be perfect in my family. Somehow, I just feel if I let myself not to do anything for someone else I just feel nothing. Ok, now I let my life in the flow. But I won’t let it in the bad flow, I should go back to the States and find my passion. Because Life is moving forward and yeah the future is scary, but you can’t look back forward because it’s familiar. The truth is it’s tempting, and I’m still chasing on my dream.
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